The Musings of an Unostentatious Homemaker

I have loved you for such a long time now I can't carry on without you. You have become a part of my existence Without  you even knowing I exist. You came to my life in my teenage years With the first stirrings of love My heart did not know what it was feeling But understood your worth. As I  grew older and understood That you were a far off dream I could not get me to forget you Hard as much as I tried. Now I pass through life with joy and smile Though in my heart of hearts I know I will never get you in my life Will have to settle for second best.

I don't know how I will carry on Nobody understands my pain I don't know how I will face it all The never ending stress and strain. People keep advising me To be brave and fight Life's a big war that needs to be won But I don't have the might. I don't understand my role in life Its all a colossal maze Do I need to be an adult When I still feel like a child. I need to make my parents proud Keep up my family's good name. All their voices are floating in my head It's so painful and loud. I wish they'd understand The teenager's life is tough So much to achieve in such short time It is a massive demand. 

Do you remember It was only a few years ago I used to carry you in my arms And rock you to sleep every day. I taught you to walk my love And dried all your tears You grew up to be so brave and beautiful  So proud was I of your accomplishments. Do you remember It was only a few years ago You held my hands and promised That we'll always be together . But as I sit in my little room In my old age home I miss you so much my dear But you are busy. Do you remember It was only a few years ago You had a mother Who has seized to exist for you. But I am still alive my darling Leading a lonely life Waiting patiently for a glimpse of you Before I close my eyes.